anuary came all too soon…. I say that because on New Year’s Eve, there’s this feeling of getting rid of the sh*t from the previous year and embracing the unknowns of the next - starting afresh and planning new and exciting adventures. Nope. I...

C hristmas came and went and honestly, I remember very little about it.  By Christmas Day I had known about his affair for 17 days. There must’ve been some happy moments that day but who knows. There is a photo of our daughter opening her presents and she looks very...

o, after a hellishly sleepless and panicky night, knowing my husband was sleeping with his mistress, and one of my best friend’s had suggested we go to the guest house where D was staying so we could give him a ‘rum old hiding’ the next day started...

T he very worst thing that could happen, did happen... I suspect you've guessed already what I'm about to say, because only someone as naive as me would still want to believe in the fairy tale that was(n't) out marriage... He went back to her. As I write my heart is...

ew York may have been another guilt purchase (as you can see, I am sceptical about everything these days and D recently accused me of demonising him and changing the narrative of our happy, loving marriage.  Errrrr – no sh*t), but a couple of...

had never really heard anyone talk about the pain of heartache before.  I knew it hurt like hell, but this was something else.  Not in a million did I think it would be as bad as how this actually feels.  It’s indescribable.  I had never been...

A t the advice of my father in law, we left the house and went for an epic dog walk. The idea was to chat openly and with complete honesty, leaving no stone left unturned. Talk and talk until there was nothing left to say. And that is what we did. It was intense and...

o, what do you do when you’re about to confront your husband about whether or not he’s having affair?  I mean, what words do you actually say?  I’d never done this before and only ever seen it in the movies – in fact, I’m not even sure I’d ever...

In the early hours of one dismal, December day, I found out my husband was having an affair.  I was devastated.  Still am.  It turned my whole world up-side-down.  And after a year of sleepless nights and midnight journaling, I’ve decided to blog, in the hope that...